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Quest. I can't sleep. I can't think about anything else. I want to know everything but I want to know nothing. I know we are over but my heart won't let go. It's not her fault. I've not been the best husband. I've never cheated on her. Not that I've ever really had the opportunity. But this comfort zone has been here for 18 years. She's loved me that long and now she loves someone else she met in a bar. Just like that. It's taken her nearly 3 months to tell me though. I would have preferred to have known sooner. I feel like I've been being the good husband while she is having an affair......he doesn't even live in the same country. He was here on holiday. And just by chance they met....I should be happy that I can move on but I feel empty.