Im so tired of being stressed out from being in poverty. Im always stressing cause money and lack of it

I cant do anything because im poor. I cant go out to a bar or out to eat because i don't have money. I have to skimp and save up in order to get new work shoes or extra things like a new coat or to buy a microwave or something like that. I cant afford to live and cant afford to die.

I pray my phone doesn't quit working cause it's old and i cant afford a new one.

My gums bleed everyday when i brush my teeth because i havent been to a dentist in a decade give or take.

I want to be able to at least make $18 an hour. My friend is like do warehouse work. Thats a young mans game. Not meant for a middle aged guy with back problems and arthritis setting in.

Im sick of drowning