Do you think it’s rude that people keep walking away from me when I talk about my late absent mother? I think it is. 🤬
Whenever I speak about my late mom that abandoned us, I either get cut off or people ignore me and walk away. My late dad (who passed This February) has scold me off for bringing up the past. He is tough as nails and he refuses to let me sulk in pity or depression. He would me like, “Stop dwelling on the past and I’m not going to let you. Not on my watch. If you keep bringing it up, I’m going to be hard on you. Your mom doesn’t want you. Let her go already!!! You don’t need her. You’re not a little girl that cries for her mommy anymore.”
I feel like he’s too mean or too tough. I talk to someone else for sympathy because it’s hard to talk to my dad about my absent mom. My older half siblings flat out told me I need to stop bringing it up and they’re tired of it and Dad HAD to be tough on me because I have been upset enough and sometimes it’s the only way to get me to listen and snap into reality. Even my best friends interrupted me or walked away from me. I overheard my dad talking to my older siblings and cousin about me needing to move on and stop chasing after someone that will never wants to be part of my life. He said to loud enough for me to hear. I said, “I’m sitting right here. You know I can hear you right.” My dad said, “Good! I WANTED you to hear me and I’m doing it on purpose to get you to stop and move on with your life. Everyone has been trying to tell you.”
I don’t always dwell on the past but my sad knows that I did. How does he know?
He doesn’t have to be so hard on me.
I’m so sick of people being rude.
I feel like he’s too mean or too tough. I talk to someone else for sympathy because it’s hard to talk to my dad about my absent mom. My older half siblings flat out told me I need to stop bringing it up and they’re tired of it and Dad HAD to be tough on me because I have been upset enough and sometimes it’s the only way to get me to listen and snap into reality. Even my best friends interrupted me or walked away from me. I overheard my dad talking to my older siblings and cousin about me needing to move on and stop chasing after someone that will never wants to be part of my life. He said to loud enough for me to hear. I said, “I’m sitting right here. You know I can hear you right.” My dad said, “Good! I WANTED you to hear me and I’m doing it on purpose to get you to stop and move on with your life. Everyone has been trying to tell you.”
I don’t always dwell on the past but my sad knows that I did. How does he know?
He doesn’t have to be so hard on me.
I’m so sick of people being rude.
22-25, F
