Did you always want to have children?

I tried to ignore it, and push it down but at the restaurant my mum and God mother were having a seperate conversation as I spoke to my uncle.
Anyways she proceeded to tell her that she never wanted to have children...
I heard it and tried to keep my focus on what I was saying but my uncle seemed to notice what she was saying too, only to stop and focus on what was happening briefly.

My God mother was kind enough to remind my mum that I was a blessing and one that's grown up into something wonderful.

But my mums focus was and has always primarily been on my father.
And the moment she speaks of him, the truth comes out.


I said I wouldn't do this, but with everything that's been happening lately with these guys, it's just reminded me how insignificant I feel...
Why doesn't anyone seem to want me...