My grandpa yelled at me for being lazy for not looking for a job and he’s fed up.

So my grandpa when into my room, fed up with me laying on my bed all day and pulled me out of bed. He said, “Get up! NOW!”
I didn’t want to but he didn’t take no for an answer and didn’t listen to me. He pointed at me and sternly scolded at me, “You listen
here young lady! You’ve been like this since your dad’s passing and laying in bed every day and wasting your life isn’t healthy! You need to get help and I’m getting it for you and YOU ARE GOING! Plus you haven’t been looking for your job and we’re fed up with you laying around all day doing nothing! You’re getting bigger since you haven’t been exercising! (Ouch harsh)
You’re 19! You should be exploring the world and enjoy life! Death shouldn’t stop you from living life. Life goes on! What have you been doing all day?!
I told him I laid in bed, are junk food, watched movies avoiding my friends angry, blunt voicemail. Then he cut me off and said, “Did you look for work at least?”
I told him no I’m too depressed and I’m just going to volunteer online and I’m autistic so I can’t do anymore and I’m a looser. He cut me off and yelled at me, “WELL YOU BETTER DO SOMETHING!! I’m getting tired of these lame excuses! Stop using autism as an excuse and volunteer won’t pay the bills. If you’re not live with us need to get a job or at least do some! We’re fed up! Tomorrow, I expect you to do something productive with yourself, look for a job that will PAY you. You wanna get paid. You lost your other job you can look for another one. STOP WITH THESE PITIFUL EXCUSES!” And he walked away and slammed the door. He didn’t have to yell at me and he made me cry some more. I’m a teen. He needs to stop yelling at me. 💔💔💔💔💔😭😭😭😭😭
I need my mommy and daddy but their both dead! 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Sorry long rant.