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Mellowgirl I've only ever been diagnosed with the seizures, but I started having them when I was 23.
As far as the anxiety goes, I guess when I was like, 13-15, I had this stage where I felt depressed. I had friends, brother, sister, so it wasn't like there weren't other people around. So not really sure how much of that was really depression or just me being me, idk.
I would have to say in my personal life, there's a lot of family stuff that goes on, nothing bad, there's a relative I help out from time to time, but they live downstairs. Long story short, I worry a lot about them. Probably to the point to where it's caused me to have anxiety. I've had pits in my stomach so bad, I start having digestive problems, or I go 2 days without being able to eat anything. Although, that not being able to eat part has gotten better for me. I did some learning and tried to develop coping skills, and it works for me.
I remember one time 3 of us went to Denny's for dinner, and the one friend wouldn't stop acting silly and goofy, and well I started getting really anxious, like something bad was gonna happen. That's probably due to my dad, whenever we as kids would get silly or goofy, you'd get a slap across the mouth.
I really think most of it stems back to him. Just growing up in that house was tough. We moved from another state after 19 years, but watch out, if he heard you laughing, that just wasn't allowed. You couldn't be a kid, you were told to "grow up!!", even though you were only 12.
There's that country song, Too much fun by Daryle Singletary, I always change the chorus lyrics:
Chorus:
Too much fun, what's that mean?
It means getting a fist in the mouth if you take any money
It's like a girl too pretty who is late to class
Being unlucky, a car too fast it flies off the track
No matter what they say, I've done
But we ain't allowed to have any fun
I just know we went through a lot of bullshit of him yelling all the time if you tried having any fun as a kid. I know, sounds crazy right? Well.... I guess that's how he was raised in the 50's, I always said if I ever had kids I'd never, ever raise them like how I was raised. Kids are kids and are supposed to laugh and have fun.
