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alan20 路 M
After the failure of an extremely intense love affair when I was very young and idealistic and she'd come to mean life to me, I married in an attempt to numb some of the pain, and not from love. She's been loyal, we're still together, but in an emotional sense I died then. I've sometimes regretted not having what it took to put an end to life properly. I wouldn't ever wish to hurt my wife and my mind forces me to stay positive if that makes sense.
alan20 路 M
@SW-User Joy seems to be overstating it but I ENJOY going on holidays, Spanish culture, music - e.g. Rachmaninov, Debussy. I'm in email content with my first love again; in a very strange way we're still in love despite her fleeing to the other side of the planet. Now you know, sparring partner.