why do we watch bad or disturbing news ? , when we worry about stuff so much but yet we're drawn to watch the awful stuff , its hard not too

I think it's a Human nature thing. Although, just the other day I was contemplating the fact that I seem to have lost the urge to do that.
I'd rather read about it.
eg. I haven't yet watched George Floyd's death and I'm not going to. I've seen some still pics of it and that's enough.
I don't want to see such things anymore.