The last few days have been very surreal to me.

I feel like I finally hit absolute rock bottom. I went completely empty. But now I don't feel any of the misery that has been the last several years of my life. But none of the joys either.

Is the rollercoaster over? Can I fill myself up with new things now? Can this actually even happen? Years of crippling depression just up and vanish overnight after breaking me down as far as I can go?

I don't expect any answers. But my thoughts can't make sense if they stay in my head. And I'm just talking mainly to myself. :-/