My anxiety keeps getting worse

My dad constantly screams in his army voice, my stepmother fights a lot, my sister is too innocent to understand. I have 4 doctor appointments coming up and one m worried about is the endoscopy. I hate having even my eyes just shut around people. I can't imagine being sedated. I tried telling my boyfriend although he already knew and all he can say is "Really babe, you're still anxious about that? You're in the safest place." After he asked what was wrong. And hes right it is a safe place but why ask if you're just going to shut down my reason like it's idiotic? I never have a home cooked meal. Always takeout or fast food. Things are just kinda hard right now, you know?