So my ex boyfriend killed himself this morning... How am I supposed to feel right now?

Because honestly I can't put it into words. All I know is I'm not okay and I've felt sick to my stomach since I heard the news.
Our relationship was horrible and he stalked me for 4+ years to the point that I had to go to the police, but I still never would wish something like this to happen to him. Part of me knew this was going to happen someday, another part of me is relieved that he can't hurt me ever again, but a big part of me feels guilty even though I know it's not my fault. I'm so conflicted right now and I just needed to vent this out.

SW-User

It sucks, and even when you know it's not your fault you might think "what if..". But that "what if" doesn't exist, he made an horrible decision, that's what people sometimes do, it hasn't anything to do with you, but with his views, and capability to handle life, he even made you a co-victim by doing it. I wish you much strength in the next period.