So my ex boyfriend killed himself this morning... How am I supposed to feel right now?

Because honestly I can't put it into words. All I know is I'm not okay and I've felt sick to my stomach since I heard the news.
Our relationship was horrible and he stalked me for 4+ years to the point that I had to go to the police, but I still never would wish something like this to happen to him. Part of me knew this was going to happen someday, another part of me is relieved that he can't hurt me ever again, but a big part of me feels guilty even though I know it's not my fault. I'm so conflicted right now and I just needed to vent this out.