Is this a type of addiction / obsession or something else ( name it ) ?

I'm done with submitting to my religion ( Christianity ) and have no interest what so ever in other type, it's all the same anyway . That doesn't stop daily thoughts of God though, sometimes contemplations of Jesus and angles too .

Rarely but it has happened I'll wake up in the middle of my sleep with a deep feeling that I'm being told God is real . Pretty much when I think I have made progress and I'm not thinking of God as much the feeling that he is real becomes very loud .... I think