Uugghh the things I used to pray for...and was becoming even a little mad at God

At God...For “not giving it to me!”. I sweared they would be good for me and others...
Over the past month I have been watching closely and every day, this woman that has the things I wanted...and what they are doing to her MIND. She is going crazy. With "my" ( well, not mine but anyway) things she is rolling down the hill like a snow ball with many people telling her every day stop stop stop you are wrong. But , unfortunately, it's pointless. That so easily could ve been me. It's scary. But she does have a caring, loving heart and sencere intentions so, I have a feeling, that maybe at the end she will come to her senses. Just so very thankful God ignored me when I wanted it with "good intentions" for everybody 🤦‍♀️😖

Again...thank you, God, for not listening to me ...the dumb ass that I am ...what did I almost get myself into omg no

Pride 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️ I will never go to Heaven cause I am sure they don’t take such 🥺... um 😟 idiots. Sigh 😞

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Notanymore · 41-45, M

All we can pray for is the ability to find gratitude in God's will

SW-User

@Notanymore well, that’s what people with real faith do. Obviously, I am nowhere near that. Glad God knows it

Notanymore · 41-45, M

@SW-User of course a universal power knows that you can't understand the will and reasoning. That is why I think it best to follow the serenity prayer. Serenity to Accept the things you cannot change courage to change the things you can and the wisdom to know the difference

SW-User

...ya, I know this prayer. Maybe I’ll just say “God , just do what you want” I guess@Notanymore from now on. It, like, in compasses all the words 😊

Notanymore · 41-45, M

@SW-User that's the way I've felt through my father's sickness and death. That I could pray hard for a miracle, but a miracle never came.....and I felt strongly that I was praying for my own will over the will of god....something none of us are able to understand. In my prayers for a miracle I found myself out of touch with all of the blessings I've had throughout my life and all of the blessings we as a family were witness to at the the time.

SW-User

@Notanymore ya, I was in the same situation. I so wanted my dying of cancer father to live, that I was going nuts, not being able to let go. I know what you mean