His desire is my desire

My goal is to do the will of God. My dream is to be used by him. Those who know me know that I have one of the strongest loves for God and his son Jesus that you will ever see. Because of this, my life goals and dreams aren't typical of someone my age. But I honestly can't live for myself. I tried it once and I felt no purpose. No sense of direction. I live for him and I desire to be used by him. So much so that I would be devastated if he couldn't find use for me.