Does that make me any less of a person?

I used to use drugs, I liked banging coke for a while. I didn't sell my soul or end up in the streets. I did not have a full on addiction. I just don't feel like I am able to discuss this part of my life because doing drugs is not a favorable attribute. I don't know that I regret it either. It was just something that I did. That part of my life is behind me now and I have no future plans of using again, but sometimes I just want to talk about it, it's like my deep dark secret and no one knows about it. It is a part of me that I keep hidden, and maybe that is the problem, I don't like to keep secrets. Not like everyone needs to know but yeah.

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Fernie · F

Why keep this a secret? You should announce proudly that you had the strength to stop...that could help others

mljenkins · 51-55, F

@Fernie I stopped because I almost died one night, that and shooting coke for a couple of minutes high just seemed stupid at some point. I don't know if you can count boredom as strength

Fernie · F

@mljenkins you do know that many, many addicts do that same thing but continue on in spite of almost dying...right?...you have an inner strength that made you choose to live instead of die like so many do every day. A lack of self esteem is a big reason people get addicted...work on that. You should be proud of yourself...stop minimizing your success!

mljenkins · 51-55, F

@Fernie Yes, I suppose if you look at like that, I was successful. I was just in such a bad place mentally at that time, I was bored with everything, including living. I mean, what kind of people get bored with doing drugs, lol, that's right, me!

Fernie · F

@mljenkins I tried to drink and drug away my problems for 20 years then I stopped and I could not be more proud of me...and I proudly tell my story when it's appropriate and folks are quite impressed. I have no shame anymore...and you should not either. What you did saved your own life.

mljenkins · 51-55, F

@Fernie congratulations with your success! How much clean time do you have? I have 2 years 6 months

Fernie · F

@mljenkins 10 years for me...life is so much better. 2.5 years is excellent!!! Congratulations !!!