Issues and art
My regard towards dad is sort of complex, i am ever thankful and stuff for all he does, and some finer details i wouldn't get with any other father, but in direct relation to my specific interests loathe is too kind a word for my regard towards him, and in other respects he is annoying, you just got to take my word for it, and plus it's not too hard to imagine if we know more than just a few people chances are some get to our nerves in quite a intense and disrupting manner.
In 1995 when i found Nietzsche that was my first real keen interest based on a paternal revolt, my collection of films is another version of that.
A story he always brings up is that when i was young i said i never want to be fat like my dad.
Everything regardless of whether we like it or not comments on things we may rather not think about.
Films and shows by their very nature seek to depict life, warts and all.
When i discovered real cinema, it was a powerful liberating force, i saw it as exotic and attractive, and much of it would never be approved if seen by my other family members.
Like with Nietzsche, when these things get known about there is a whole other side to them than just the revolt side, but to see them you have to be seeing them in a favorable light, the basis on my enjoyment hence was rooted in revolt, and then i see aspects of them that tenderizes their content into matter that paternally shouldn't be a problem.
There was a time when i shared some of my favorite films, and although there was a rocky start to all of them them adjusting to a radically different way of seeing the world, or just the fact that it was showing things best left unsaid due to their thinking, they eventually accepted what they endured into something that had merit.
Fleeting moments of parental validation of things i've had an appeitite for that is rooted in revolt, which is as like unto witchcraft.
Since getting the Blu-ray player, and seeing stuff on the good tv a couple years ago, the tv i used to watch everything is no longer suffices. Getting a new tv for me for us is a bigger deal than normal people could imagine, and 2023 is shaping up to a year where i will get some significant use out of my collection, meaning environmentally at the battlefield, where a problem is raised by me doing that, and them being who they are.
The same thing being seen by two or more people is going to then be more than just one thing. When one sees something, they take to it all of what they bring.
For me i bring a cultivated appetite for that which sharply differs from those i live with.
For them, they want a simple inoffensive, edited for family viewing experience, something JUST like their own programs on the channels.
This is a little bit on this predicament, i see it as an outgrowth of say all the wars in history that had something to do with religion, all the fights between people throughout history, all the heated debates, everything involving people not getting along with each other is mirrored by me trying to watch my collection in the living room.
The reason they will never see my stuff the way i do, is in how data is processed, by who one is which is brought to anything we pay attention to.
And to be clear to them would be in the illustration of war be like shooting a fatal shot.
There shall be no symbolic killing, only the nauseating cycle of misunderstanding, because the truth in this situation is deadly, noone here want the other dead, except theologically from them to me, for in bible language one is to be dead to the world, and the whole thing about my collection is that they are windows into the world, warts and all. By affirming my allegiance to them, my obsessional love of artistic films and shows, regardless of their perceived merit, is worldly, and if they see that clearly, perhaps they would see their own worldly deeds too, and see the illogical nature of faith based living, seeing it through a perspective they've only had slightly during their moments of doubt.
In 1995 when i found Nietzsche that was my first real keen interest based on a paternal revolt, my collection of films is another version of that.
A story he always brings up is that when i was young i said i never want to be fat like my dad.
Everything regardless of whether we like it or not comments on things we may rather not think about.
Films and shows by their very nature seek to depict life, warts and all.
When i discovered real cinema, it was a powerful liberating force, i saw it as exotic and attractive, and much of it would never be approved if seen by my other family members.
Like with Nietzsche, when these things get known about there is a whole other side to them than just the revolt side, but to see them you have to be seeing them in a favorable light, the basis on my enjoyment hence was rooted in revolt, and then i see aspects of them that tenderizes their content into matter that paternally shouldn't be a problem.
There was a time when i shared some of my favorite films, and although there was a rocky start to all of them them adjusting to a radically different way of seeing the world, or just the fact that it was showing things best left unsaid due to their thinking, they eventually accepted what they endured into something that had merit.
Fleeting moments of parental validation of things i've had an appeitite for that is rooted in revolt, which is as like unto witchcraft.
Since getting the Blu-ray player, and seeing stuff on the good tv a couple years ago, the tv i used to watch everything is no longer suffices. Getting a new tv for me for us is a bigger deal than normal people could imagine, and 2023 is shaping up to a year where i will get some significant use out of my collection, meaning environmentally at the battlefield, where a problem is raised by me doing that, and them being who they are.
The same thing being seen by two or more people is going to then be more than just one thing. When one sees something, they take to it all of what they bring.
For me i bring a cultivated appetite for that which sharply differs from those i live with.
For them, they want a simple inoffensive, edited for family viewing experience, something JUST like their own programs on the channels.
This is a little bit on this predicament, i see it as an outgrowth of say all the wars in history that had something to do with religion, all the fights between people throughout history, all the heated debates, everything involving people not getting along with each other is mirrored by me trying to watch my collection in the living room.
The reason they will never see my stuff the way i do, is in how data is processed, by who one is which is brought to anything we pay attention to.
And to be clear to them would be in the illustration of war be like shooting a fatal shot.
There shall be no symbolic killing, only the nauseating cycle of misunderstanding, because the truth in this situation is deadly, noone here want the other dead, except theologically from them to me, for in bible language one is to be dead to the world, and the whole thing about my collection is that they are windows into the world, warts and all. By affirming my allegiance to them, my obsessional love of artistic films and shows, regardless of their perceived merit, is worldly, and if they see that clearly, perhaps they would see their own worldly deeds too, and see the illogical nature of faith based living, seeing it through a perspective they've only had slightly during their moments of doubt.
