It was a problem of pacing
I've gleaned some perspective from my favorite booktuber, when he touched on the connection between long distance running and reading long book. My erroneous way would be to sprint the whole way through, and end up giving up soon after even beginning.
This will be tended to and improved over time.
Also his advice to a person taking a test, even though there is a time limit, to think there is all the time in the world, so one can concentrate. I tend to sense the end coming rapidly, and it's a doom and gloom mentality. Nothing at all against that imo, but it can be stultifying, and effect how one goes about things. It's all in the nuance, it's never clear cut how a thing should be, but there obviously should be a certain way, and perhaps the key here is just to let it all happen, doing little things like posting while there's time to do so.
Yes, it is important to move on, things have noticeably changed around here, i want to proceed headstrong in a fantasy mental realm, where the books and films are thee thing, and educational videos on youtube, the thing i am building up to, is the complete cessation of the social media involvement stage which for me began over a decade ago. I may post a few more things after this just to feel sufficiently sick of myself, so i go "never again" oh yes, a great big bottle of whiskey would help me make a bigger fool of myself too, last few binges, i did an awful job at pessimism, when i want to say something mimicking the themes of the thinkers i love, i would have to actually have some fresh learning under the belt, and such is just not the case.
My booktuber hero is an example of the kind of person i had hoped to be, a warm, gentle and perceptive chap that encourages others.
But there are real differences at play, certain actualities that forbid me to go that route, namely that since 2004, i've been not a very functioning member of the world. SW and sites before this gave me a sense of having functions, but it's for me just the vapors of the cultural heritage, of the interests.
The tricky thing - that the trajectory of what is left is non-existent, that there is still such a hunger and need for the arts, namely in books and film. What does all that mean?
It's the well known phrase ....before you die, the things you want to read and watch before you die, sure it sounds neat, like a game, but putting it into practice is sort of like finding out things just don't really work that way.
But by virtue of the absurd, i shall smooth such paradoxes to a glimmer.
This will be tended to and improved over time.
Also his advice to a person taking a test, even though there is a time limit, to think there is all the time in the world, so one can concentrate. I tend to sense the end coming rapidly, and it's a doom and gloom mentality. Nothing at all against that imo, but it can be stultifying, and effect how one goes about things. It's all in the nuance, it's never clear cut how a thing should be, but there obviously should be a certain way, and perhaps the key here is just to let it all happen, doing little things like posting while there's time to do so.
Yes, it is important to move on, things have noticeably changed around here, i want to proceed headstrong in a fantasy mental realm, where the books and films are thee thing, and educational videos on youtube, the thing i am building up to, is the complete cessation of the social media involvement stage which for me began over a decade ago. I may post a few more things after this just to feel sufficiently sick of myself, so i go "never again" oh yes, a great big bottle of whiskey would help me make a bigger fool of myself too, last few binges, i did an awful job at pessimism, when i want to say something mimicking the themes of the thinkers i love, i would have to actually have some fresh learning under the belt, and such is just not the case.
My booktuber hero is an example of the kind of person i had hoped to be, a warm, gentle and perceptive chap that encourages others.
But there are real differences at play, certain actualities that forbid me to go that route, namely that since 2004, i've been not a very functioning member of the world. SW and sites before this gave me a sense of having functions, but it's for me just the vapors of the cultural heritage, of the interests.
The tricky thing - that the trajectory of what is left is non-existent, that there is still such a hunger and need for the arts, namely in books and film. What does all that mean?
It's the well known phrase ....before you die, the things you want to read and watch before you die, sure it sounds neat, like a game, but putting it into practice is sort of like finding out things just don't really work that way.
But by virtue of the absurd, i shall smooth such paradoxes to a glimmer.
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