The top most thing I love nowadays

Is sleeping. I can sleep for whole day and whole night. People might judge me as a lazy person but sleep is only the thing which is giving me peace nowadays. When I am wakeup I am tutored by so much expectations of peoples which is beyond my capacity though I have given my everything to fix the situation but people just expects more and more and more from me as if I don't have any wants or desire atall. I hate that they don't appreciate my efforts whether that is in house or working place. I have sacrificed my favourite foods to shopping to everything to pay the debts of my husband house but they expects more and more from me. I have worked with my 200% in my working place but soon I will be jobless because of merger of our bank. Sometimes I feel like there is no any hope anywhere. Sometimes I even think of suicide but it is just useless. Suicide will only hurt my parents and siblings. My husband will get another wife in few months and my in law's will get new daughter in law. My employer will get new employee but only who will suffer is my father and mother who had sacrificed alot to make our life better. Still with all this hopelessness and all these disappointments, I have a little hope from my intuition that I am born for great things and my future is going to be awesome.