I'm tiring, I'm tiring to raise, tiring to comfort, tiring to talk to - one moment I am like this, the next moment like that -

if I had a friend like that, I would distance myself a little, just to keep my sanity.
But since it is me, I cannot distance myself from me, only try to love me more.
I am succeeding I am not saying I am not and yet, it feels like having a child, sometimes it is tiring.
Maybe we all are having children, either if they finally manifest in the 3d world or not, maybe they're there, and better to give birth to them and rid of them from the interior, or you carry them and good luck.
Just rumbling.
These days. Me.
Craziness of Landing, transitions, deaths, I don't know. I should just shut up :Dbut I am not.

On another note,
Diary
I am just tired
I am having a tea with the last light of the day and I am tired, I went to the other town last night, met with people, slept few hours in the hammock, swam, had coffee and felt strange talking to men- I come from the jungles, the meditations, the mountain, remember, I am not the most ordinary animal out there - despite my efforts to tame me.
Then I worked and cleaned the airbnb, returned back to the town, hiked up the mountain. Good news, I made some money enough to carry me through for another week - all these money making and survival thoughts are tiring too - and tomorrow is going to be another big day, that I will talk about later on.
I plan on taking a Mon-Tue-Wed days off and stay away as much as I can, or have little interactions.

what else, how about you..