Changed forever

Had a person I cared deeply for. About. And hoped to be in those special moments with forever. Laugh. Love. Live. But because of some miscommunication. Frustration. And misinterpretation. Even of me asking Google. How do I respectfully begin this conversation and have a chance. It all fell apart when the former was a gated aggressive built up by an equally untrusting onlooker. And observing at the last minute a dress style so wonderful I knew I would never be that blessed. Then it went from a thirty minute in out to help this person become a more permanent part of a bigger picture they seemed very excited about to a very regretful and unfixable exchange that changed what I actually had hoped for one more time. To broken. And tarnished. I felt the loss of enthusiasm and deflated persona immediate and equally from both parties concerned. One was I hoped a longtime close friend someday and the other so special it couldn't easily be spoken by me because of past mistakes and broken attempt. So now I see possible at best a dear friend who will eventually drift away with the tides of time. Gone forever on that morning of the sea.

I know life will go on. It must. It has to. But it will always feel different now. Changed. And limited. By event and right to choose or reject.

And it's my burden to bear. Today. Just be easy when you wash away the dream slowly from my eye. All father pray.