Why am i here.
I was here back in the EP days and tried coming back but i see this is not my place. (If i ever had such a thing).
I made a lot of friends i thought were everything, they were all great people but i held on too tight.
I left when I was told it became a problem and i slowly shut all out since i learn slowly. The truest lesson was that most had no issues with it. It took a while for me to see, but i hold no ill will for any of them. This is what life is.
A thing i fought in vain most of my life is the idea that you cannot go back, I always tried to pull an Uncle Rico to find the road to 1982 (hyperbolic comment- the 80s were a miserable time for me as a teen-lol). Its not just knowing that mistakes cannot always be repaired, its knowing the background is always changing.
The things that made me are gone by and no longer relevant. You cannot get to a world that is dead and gone, the road has vanished.
I guess this is the kindness of our own mortality. Mostly we are gone before we see we are irrelevant.
I made a lot of friends i thought were everything, they were all great people but i held on too tight.
I left when I was told it became a problem and i slowly shut all out since i learn slowly. The truest lesson was that most had no issues with it. It took a while for me to see, but i hold no ill will for any of them. This is what life is.
A thing i fought in vain most of my life is the idea that you cannot go back, I always tried to pull an Uncle Rico to find the road to 1982 (hyperbolic comment- the 80s were a miserable time for me as a teen-lol). Its not just knowing that mistakes cannot always be repaired, its knowing the background is always changing.
The things that made me are gone by and no longer relevant. You cannot get to a world that is dead and gone, the road has vanished.
I guess this is the kindness of our own mortality. Mostly we are gone before we see we are irrelevant.
56-60, M
