I always lose everything i dont wanna lose

i made a new online friend not even a month ago, but i already love him so much, hes the purest person ive ever met in my entire life, im grew extremely attached to him, but now some things happened and he's gonna deactivate, dont know if hes making a new account but the thought of losing him is making me so depressed, ive been crying nonstop for 3 days already. it hurts so much