Sometimes one of the hardest things to talk about is that thing which you really want but is also that which is never offered to you.
Sometimes it's easier to say you never craved it nor desired it. But lying to yourself is different than avoidance to talk about it when asked by other people.
Sometimes, that admission may not be a weakness. But a prayer of the heart that God is waiting to hear.
These days, I find myself wishing the answers would just come with a loud knock that I can't miss, instead of a waiting game of searching that feels like a preparation for eternity while I'm still here, a human.