I feel so alone

Gosh... I hate how Im becoming a ball of negative energy....
And now... so many thing are happening my trust issues are over the roof (not sure if they are trust issues indeed or I was mistrusting for logical reasons)
I feel sad, and overwhelmed and I need a friend to talk to... but I can't ask for someone everytime my mood gets awful. I'm grateful for my life overall, but there are time when I just need someone to talk to.