I Need a Friend to Talk to Openly

Sometimes I read stories, watch movies or shows or videos, and I fall in love with people --mainly women. I wish they were my best friend or grandma since I only had one. I wish they were my lover. I just wish they were in my life. My eyes get hot, and it feels like the night before Christmas except there's nothing under the tree and you hope that maybe something will happen but hope is action and time passes as I just lie in bed hoping something changes. I'll never meet these people. I've got a big heart, and I can be something to you if you're willing to be something to me.