JANUARY 5th, 2026. ALLAH IS BACK IN MY LIFE!
That day, Allah made me start the day with tahajjud and then namaz and Qur'an.
Bliss came back into my life.
I was so hopeless and depressed and lost and miserable when the time Allah went away and did not talk to me for a while. But I remember, even during that time, it was my birthday and I found a leather jacket and a hoodie on the road, and I picked it up and wore it on my birthday. I absolutely forgot all about Allah and was being miserable and had no hope. But Allah still made sure He gave me a gift on my birthday. I found them on the road.
I had absolutely no faith in anything during that time.
My biggest fear is being abandoned by Allah again. Allah does not abandon. Never. But I guess it was the same phase that happened with Prophet Muhammad (Peace Be Upon Him). When initially he got revelation and revelations just stopped coming to him.
I prayed everyday, Allah please talk to me, if any of that was true.
No answer.
Prayed with hopelessness. Was miserable.
No answer.
Allah gave me a bigggg surprise and came back on January 5th, 2026.
I am in eternal bliss now. Inshallah. I hope never again that phase. Amma. 🙏
Bliss came back into my life.
I was so hopeless and depressed and lost and miserable when the time Allah went away and did not talk to me for a while. But I remember, even during that time, it was my birthday and I found a leather jacket and a hoodie on the road, and I picked it up and wore it on my birthday. I absolutely forgot all about Allah and was being miserable and had no hope. But Allah still made sure He gave me a gift on my birthday. I found them on the road.
I had absolutely no faith in anything during that time.
My biggest fear is being abandoned by Allah again. Allah does not abandon. Never. But I guess it was the same phase that happened with Prophet Muhammad (Peace Be Upon Him). When initially he got revelation and revelations just stopped coming to him.
I prayed everyday, Allah please talk to me, if any of that was true.
No answer.
Prayed with hopelessness. Was miserable.
No answer.
Allah gave me a bigggg surprise and came back on January 5th, 2026.
I am in eternal bliss now. Inshallah. I hope never again that phase. Amma. 🙏
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