I wouldn't wish Schizophrenia upon my worse enemy.....Or my children's beloved friends.
I have Schizoaffective Disorder, I've had it since I was 19 years old from dabbling in the occult! I didn't know what I was doing, I thought it was just a game! Until I started hearing voices!!! Which told me that love was wrong, until I withheld withheld withheld and the boom like a slingshot I went in full force head over heels! And I had sold my soul to the devil, and the demons were telling me that they were gods! Yeah right I knew they weren't But who was the real God? I felt what felt like rain pouring over me, which I thought were tears of Angels when I would later realize was the blood of Christ pouring all over me, because I would soon be lead to the cross in a vision which was loud and clear with the loud cracking sound of rock splitting when Jesus Christ redeemed me and gave me the fragrance of LIFE! So unlike so many people who walk through the Valley of the Shadow of Death, and stay there I became a Schizophrenic Christian, who would soon become born again, being sealed by the Holy Spirit and baptized in water! To only become the Light of the world's! AKA the movies of my life for all to see! From God's perspective...God takes the foolish things of the world to shame the wise, God takes the weak things of the world to shame the strong, God takes the despised things and the things that are not to nullify the things that are so that no man may boast before the Lord! That is how He creates these worlds...AKA the movies of my life for all to see! Like a parallel world But we are not to love the world or the things in it for if we do the Love of God is not in us! And also if the world loves you it would love you as it's own, as it is we do not belong to the world and are thus called up out of the world up to God! And if the world hates you keep in mind that it's hated me first (Jesus Christ!) So we are to be in the world but not of it! There are just so many things that blow my mind and that blows my aquaintances minds as well because of these movies and that God is the one who made them! It's got people talking!
BUT that's the godly gossip full of wonder and awe, then there are the false prophets who will go out into the world and the love of many will grow cold! Over the last few years, my kids have had new friends and old friends come to our house the first one I could not allow in my house any longer because I didn't feel safe around him, then there was my younger sons friends, one accused me of all sorts of evil from my youth on, accuse accuse accuse, to my children, even that of which God has long since forgiven, then there was this one friend who protected me calling to cops on one of my sons other friends protecting me, he too would soon fall and become schizophrenic and become a false prophet, I lay in bed listening to him talk about what I am about to do, then I do it, and he says see, they're right!!! (The demons) and I lay in my bed crying on the inside for this young man who was once my savior, who now has become the fallen, and my heart breaks soo soo bad for him, I would never wish this upon my worst enemy let alone someone whom I've held in high esteem since childhood, my heart is so broken God why him???? He said that he had seen the movie of my life earlier, he said he rejected God, I tried saving him, that's the problem with these movies of my life, we are to go out into the world making deciples and baptizing them in the name of the Father Son and Holy Spirit, in the end the Angels will be the reapers either Good Angels or Demons! Because the worlds are the Fields, there are wheat, and weeds, then there are Angellic reapers or demonic reapers everyone is given the choice! So many reject God. And for that eternity with God in Heaven, and for that I am grieved!
BUT that's the godly gossip full of wonder and awe, then there are the false prophets who will go out into the world and the love of many will grow cold! Over the last few years, my kids have had new friends and old friends come to our house the first one I could not allow in my house any longer because I didn't feel safe around him, then there was my younger sons friends, one accused me of all sorts of evil from my youth on, accuse accuse accuse, to my children, even that of which God has long since forgiven, then there was this one friend who protected me calling to cops on one of my sons other friends protecting me, he too would soon fall and become schizophrenic and become a false prophet, I lay in bed listening to him talk about what I am about to do, then I do it, and he says see, they're right!!! (The demons) and I lay in my bed crying on the inside for this young man who was once my savior, who now has become the fallen, and my heart breaks soo soo bad for him, I would never wish this upon my worst enemy let alone someone whom I've held in high esteem since childhood, my heart is so broken God why him???? He said that he had seen the movie of my life earlier, he said he rejected God, I tried saving him, that's the problem with these movies of my life, we are to go out into the world making deciples and baptizing them in the name of the Father Son and Holy Spirit, in the end the Angels will be the reapers either Good Angels or Demons! Because the worlds are the Fields, there are wheat, and weeds, then there are Angellic reapers or demonic reapers everyone is given the choice! So many reject God. And for that eternity with God in Heaven, and for that I am grieved!
