My friend M is back
I wanna tell you about this friend of mine, M, who recently came back into my life. I met this friend on the now defunct anonymous location-based posting app, Whisper. We exchanged numbers because he asked me to sell him a few of my Vyvanse (Vyvanse is lisdexamphetamine, it’s like adderall but longer lasting). M’s a bit older, he’s currently 42. He was a bit of an oddball. The first time I saw him in person was when I drove by his house to give him the pills in exchange for like $40. To my surprise and confusion, after I sold him the Vyvanse he continued texting me, just making frequent conversation and saying a lot of whacky shit. He adheres to Discordianism, which is like some internet pseudo-religion (“religion”) based of sowing chaos. It’s more-or-less a prank based religion (I don’t know how else to describe it) Whose Deity is Eris/Discordia, I believe. I don’t know much about it, you’d have to google it to find out more. But he’d ramble a lot about that stuff and other weird and crazy shit, and I was kinda just like who the heck is this dude and why is he texting me all the time? I didn’t know it at the time, but part of the reason he was acting so weird was because he was in psychosis; M is schizoaffective (which is basically schizophrenia plus a mood disorder i.e. bipolar or depression. His is the bipolar kind.). Although quite odd he was friendly and pleasant to talk to, so I didn’t block him or anything.
Fast forward to about a month after my major car accident last year, I had a bad concussion that made time feel like it was going by really slowly (legit like psychedelic time dilation), I had nothing to do but take it easy and recover, and I was constantly frustrated with how long it took my friends to text me back (I had also gone through a breakup not long after my car crash, so losing the main person I would talk to every day made it extra hard). The concussion had also made me hyper-social, so I felt a constant need to talk to somebody. M was the only person who would regularly text me back right away, which was something I really needed at the time. To my surprise, he was a lot more normal and reasonable sounding than I remembered him from before my crash. I later found out this was because he was no longer in a psychotic episode. He turned out to be a really cool, smart, insightful guy, who had just been dealt a shitty hand in life. I’ll talk about that in another post.
This is getting long, I wanna cut this post short, but basically we started hanging out in person, and then like a number of months ago he had a medical emergency that really fucked him up (he almost died) and he ended up blocking me and almost every friend he had without explanation. Recently he reached out and apologized for cutting me out of his life, said he was scared at the time because of how close he came to dying, but he missed me and wanted to be friends again. I was mad for a while that he disappeared on me without a word, but I forgave him, and I’m glad he’s back.
I’m gonna say more things related to him in another post or two.
Fast forward to about a month after my major car accident last year, I had a bad concussion that made time feel like it was going by really slowly (legit like psychedelic time dilation), I had nothing to do but take it easy and recover, and I was constantly frustrated with how long it took my friends to text me back (I had also gone through a breakup not long after my car crash, so losing the main person I would talk to every day made it extra hard). The concussion had also made me hyper-social, so I felt a constant need to talk to somebody. M was the only person who would regularly text me back right away, which was something I really needed at the time. To my surprise, he was a lot more normal and reasonable sounding than I remembered him from before my crash. I later found out this was because he was no longer in a psychotic episode. He turned out to be a really cool, smart, insightful guy, who had just been dealt a shitty hand in life. I’ll talk about that in another post.
This is getting long, I wanna cut this post short, but basically we started hanging out in person, and then like a number of months ago he had a medical emergency that really fucked him up (he almost died) and he ended up blocking me and almost every friend he had without explanation. Recently he reached out and apologized for cutting me out of his life, said he was scared at the time because of how close he came to dying, but he missed me and wanted to be friends again. I was mad for a while that he disappeared on me without a word, but I forgave him, and I’m glad he’s back.
I’m gonna say more things related to him in another post or two.
