Not the favorite friend :((

I am everyone's friend but never the "best" friend. I'm not anyone's choice, I'm not anyone's favorite. like I'm not that friend that they would always find or miss, for example "where is lily?" or "let's wait for lily" or "don't forget to join lily" maybe it's just my thoughts, maybe I'm just overthinking, maybe they do talk to me or miss me whenever I'm not in there, but the problem is I never felt it. I never felt that I was needed in the group. I'm just there. Everyone has their own main bestfriend in the group while I don't have. I'm just part in the group. Maybe I'm too boring, not that kind of friend that they would miss to jam with. I really hate this feeling.

What's new? It's a kind of platitude situation for me. Always been the option but never been their choice.
Yes, we exist.


and I'm sorry for my English, I'm still not good with it.