I relate to you, I mostly feel like this too. Like maybe you should try talking to your friends about it, idk? Like I once told my friends I kind of felt left out, and they didn't realise I felt that before and thought I just didn't feel like talking or seemed occupied. Though like talking with them hasn't actually improved my situation, it might work for you? Another option could be to try finding a new friend that you can kind of actually talk to, like sometimes even though you are friends with someone, they just aren't the right friend for you.