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i'm not alone but it feels like i am. i have friends, but it feels like none of them cares about me. everyone has to have at least one best friend, a best friend whom they care about and enjoy talking with. but i don't think anyone sees me as a best friend or at least someone they care or trust. i'm always the one who starts the conversation, if i stayed quiet i'd be a loner and no one would even care to check up on me to make sure i'm included or if i'm okay. it hurts to know that no one actually cares if i exist. i would just stand in a small space alone at school and no one would even bother to talk to me. i just watch as my other friends have fun and laugh out loud with their other friends while i just gaze at them with jealousy.