I’m scared if I keep trying to make friends, eventually I’ll start self harming again.

@ViciDraco nobody will talk to me about it. I need a family and people can’t love me like that. I confuse hope with expectation. Believing someone will hear me or care deeply. I only have myself and I’m a single parent. I hold somewhat steady, but inside I’m in so much pain. Nobody will ever go there with me and I shouldn’t expect them to understand. I want to understand people. I love people. But there so easy to lose in raw moments. Because they never bother to try to understand. They take it personally when you need space, get upset when just need to be held. I’m just too deeply sad. The more I reach out the sadder I get. But where do I draw the line?

@BrokenAbyss I've seen first hand the people that torpedo friendships over small misunderstandings. Hell, it's happened right in this thread. People seem to have lost the capacity for patience with each other. And it really is sad.

@ViciDraco that’s where I fear growing bitter. I’m nearly numb to it but then I flip when loneliness hits and I’m so sad. Then angry. Then projecting. I don’t wanna do that.