Reflecting

I've been thinking about a friend I (used to?) have. I really liked them, and enjoyed talking to them a lot, but I fcked things up just like always, and haven't heard from them since. I don't know if we're still considered friends or not, but I wish... well it doesn't even matter really what I wish because there's no retracting the past.

They won't see this. I wish I wasn't an idiot though.