I apologized to my friends but they don’t believe me. What should I do?

They were fed up with me sugarcoating crap, not being honest and dragging them into crap and called me for beating around the push. They said I make them do all the work every time we plan an outing and one of y other friends pointed it out and called me out for being lazy and making shit worse because I’m not contributing to the planning. They made ME chose everything, the places and the times. That wasn’t fair. Also my friend called me an “ass” because I was walking too fast and she said I wasn’t considerate in her feelings since she was shorter than me and taller people walk faster. Them my friends said I keep getting angry every time the truth is spoken and I’m the one that asks and always turn shit around and making them feel like the bad guys and I made them look bad. I wasn’t trying too! They said I use my autism as an excuse and it pisses them off. They don’t believe my apology and flat out said, “How do we know that you’re telling the truth? How do we know that you’re not just saying to make yourself feel better?” They stumped me. One said don’t talk to us again if you’re not going to prove it to us. They stopped texting me after I said, “I’m sorry” 10 times but they would reply.