Day 44 and its an all time low.

@SW-User 😔🤗 people aren't very nice. I find that people often chose sarcasm and being rude over being nice here. And whem you let yhem know they've hurt your feelings they basically get up in your grill as if you're the problem.
Ive been unkind to a few people here.
I dunno what's wrong with me. I want friends then i push them away.
I have a friend and i find it claustrophobic. Thwy get down and i try my best to support them then suddenly they're dragging me into their despair and believe me i try to help but two negatives just don't make a right.
When im honest they get belligerent or real nasty.

I can't win. Im not of this time i don't understand anything anymore and the more i try to understand the more im hit with war.

Im giving up.

My own bodies giving up on me.

As for my art i was told by my new course leader that my art isnt up to standard.
@SW-User @SW-User

@Peppa Yeah, I feel you on all that stuff. Life is full of disappointments and hardship. All I can say is do what you can to make it over these road blocks and see what you can do to continue from there. That's what I've been doing.

@SW-User be kinder... And hopefully people will in return. That's all i can think.

@Peppa whose standards? industry/commercial standards? or their own standards? art is subjective and no way is the right way. fuck your course leader

@SW-User i dont know if you've seen my art here, she said its too small. Im in danger of reperpetrating stereotypical images of black people. Although i have potential she basically told me artists to look up and said their art is something i should work more towards.
barbara walker
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@Peppa I am not sure if I've seen your work. But I think I did.



let me ask you this what type of art do you want to do? what goals do you what to accomplish with your work? cause it sounds like your instructor is pushing towards a direction where you don't want to go with your work. Do you want to draw more realistic, more cartoony or what? The two examples are two differents styles. So idk what direction she is trying to push you in persay. this is just my opinion. Sometimes art instructors can suck the life and creativity out of you and others are very inspirational, and then others are meh.

Nonethless, having the basic fundamentals of art down is very beneficial such as colors, proportions, perspective, composition etc.

@SW-User i am tired of seeing art of black people in abstract form or in the background. Although ive been advised to use my art for change why do i also have to focus on the negatives. Gun crime etc. I have no association with people like that. Anyone that was like that i moved away from. I know nothing of it.
I want to make positive images and tell of stories that are successes like my grandparents etc.