I want to hear back on my interviews and I also want December and the winter ❄ to come ..

I am not stressed or dying to hear back (for some reason) yet still want to hear back 🥔🤷🏽‍♀
I have a weird feeling of not caring but also caring 🥔🤷🏽‍♀ .. i do not know why I am connecting this winter to fresh starts..

My birthday is coming up too soon.. could be a birthday gift 🥔🤷🏽‍♀

Anyhow.. time to lie in bed.. a lot is going on and I feel good that I am making some improvements in my life like studies, less alcohol and really less stress and hyper about outcome and results..