Why are my lips so chapped already?!?

@thepreposterouspanda 💀

@thepreposterouspanda thats my lip surface

@WaryWitchWandering Same. My allergies have me bent over the sink this summer. 💀

@thepreposterouspanda some mornings I cough and gag on post nasal… and it will make me nauseous or I will legit work it up and out (less sexy than that sounds lmao)

@WaryWitchWandering When I was smoking a lot more (and mainly herb) I coughed stuff up constantly. 😑

Bodies are far too complicated and needy for their own good. 😂

@thepreposterouspanda I’ve been smoking more since trying dropping alcohol

@WaryWitchWandering That's what helped me kick the booze. I'd be dead at this point if not for ganja.

I was up to half a bottle of vodka a day before I started smoking. 😐

Unfortunately, I overdid it with the weed back in June and now I'm having panic attacks any time I try to smoke. So my safe space is gone yayyyy!

@thepreposterouspanda what if you just do like a hit here and there?

@thepreposterouspanda rather than smoking a whole joint or bowl to the face

@WaryWitchWandering Nope. Even a puff brings it back on. Gonna have to take a few days break probably... unfortunately, my days aren't filled with much of anything at this point and sitting around NOT being high is fucking miserable. :D

I'm just so very, very tired of being disabled. This isn't what I had planned for my adult experience at all. 😂

@thepreposterouspanda do you like to doodle? Or paint? Or take photos? Or write shit?

You can still use your awesome mind to do shit 😊

It’ll be more than ok, take a while off weed. When I was pregnant with my children I felt amazing mentally (was more in tune with everything)… I was completely sober no bad chemicals or drugs or anything. I don’t know how to make myself go back to that, with out it being about somebody else. I could be my best because I had to for a baby growing inside of me. I had to make every right choice and it did not even bother me bc it wasn’t about me… that thought does apply to them being here now in present time, but I slip up at times and want my vices

@WaryWitchWandering I do a lot of writing and a lot of guitar playing. :) Working on some really catchy stuff right now that lyrics are being difficult with haha.

It's just tough because weed is the only thing that keeps my heart rate and blood pressure stable as well so being off it makes things a bit weird. Just gonna have to get through it though. 😅