I think i will drink vodka to go place. Jus to shake this scared feeling of something bad will happen.

Blahhhhh wish i was not so afraid of going places an doing stuff on my own in this damn town, ugh hate this about me... I hate walking alone, hate going visiting too, hate having company over and i especially hate caring too much of what ppl think of me Smh!!! I have this narrative in my head that ppl love to make fun of me and laugh or talk about me. Sheesh, im 33 yrs old. When will i fken snap out of this bs brain thinking i have. So, glad my girl doesnt live with me bc we would be butting heads bc shes an outgoing person while im an introvert lmao. Hate judgment ppl give out an their shitty attitude too. Blah.