What was your first time drinking? 👀

The first time I ever tried alcohol was at a party my parents threw 😂

I was 11 at the time. I remember they had me taste a daquiri & I liked the feeling so I kept drinking more 😅 then they stopped me so I continued to sneak small shots of Jagermeister whenever nobody was looking 😌

I remember that was when this "Party Like a Rockstar" song was popular so I remember that repeating a few times. Then this one song played & I fell deep into the vibe 😌

So I grew up always playing this song when I'd drink even though I knew nothing about that stuff yet 😂

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Scribbles · 36-40, F

I think I had tasted a few sips or a small cup of hard ciders, beer and wine coolers and such a few times at family events when I was a child, because I was a curious child. I can't say I liked any of it. But I liked trying it.

I didn't really drink anything until I was 14, a friend of mine got drunk and her boyfriend took advantage of her a few times. It scared her and it was a bad experience for her.
A week later, She started bringing water bottles filled with Vodka almost everyday afterwards (her 20 year old boyfriend supplied her with all the cheap vodka and beer she wanted). She came to me to talk to about it and I very vaguely admitted to having some bad experiences too. She said, she guessed that I probably had and pressed me to tell her, but I never did.
I really wanted to help her but she outright demanded that I not try to help her with her problems and just shut up and drink with her. Unfortunately I liked the Vodka as a kid, and we sometimes enjoyed mixing it with juice and started to find solace in drinking too. It felt therapeutic at the time, because we'd find a quiet spot in school and drink and talk about some of our problems, listen to music, and what we wanted to do in life, at the time I thought maybe I could convince her to dump that guy, or I could help in some way. She desperately needed a shoulder to lean on. We also laughed at the thought that we did better at speaking Spanish in Spanish class after drinking (I was convinced it helped roll my R's). Later in highschool we both had a hard realization that we were depressed, drinking more and more and just wanted to get drunk every day and weren't functional human beings with hopes and dreams anymore. We stopped caring about anything.

One day we had gone a bit beyond tipsy, and we were hiding from some guys looking for us. It scared us all over again (because we realized it would be hard to protect each other and we didn't like that) and We both immediately cut back to once a week. And she finally dumped her boyfriend for good instead of hooking back up. It took me a few more years later before realizing I needed to go sober to clean up. I didn't like my reliance on it after I was finally free from my parent's home and the lucky thing was that the guys I dated didn't like me wanting to get tipsy before sex (not every time anyway) which helped pushed me to sober up too. Thankfully they were all good guys, and I never got hurt by them. I started sobering up around the time I hit 21. She ended up going to AA when she was 18 and later on became a firefighter. She was so happy with where she was headed in life. I remember celebrating with her and telling her how proud I was of her.

Note to self: I should really go hang out with her sometime. We haven't spoken in years.

Not sure how we never got caught by any adult. As an adult and former teacher, I'd have been immediately suspicious. I guess we were good at flying under the radar.

Anyway, to any kids out there...don't drink to escape or mask your troubles. It's not worth it. You just become dependent on the alcohol and that can cause all kinds of problems. You still have to deal with the original problem.anyway. And most importantly, try to be safe and if shit happens, get somebody to help you! :/

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@Scribbles this was a long one but it resonated with me due to my background in it too. I did the same thing as your friend. I was in high school bringing water bottles filled with vodka on a daily basis. I'd mix drinks with my friends or just do it by myself. Either way it was all just for the hell of it. I had a rough childhood & I think that's what made me wanna grow up too fast. I realized already at age 14 that I had a problem which led to me quitting for 2 years (that's still the longest I've ever quit). I started again at age 16 & picked up right where I left off.

I always tell people that there's stages to alcoholism. First you're just trying it for fun or curiosity. Next, you're just doing it with friends to have fun. Then it leads to doing it to cope... When you're stressed or bothered. Before you know it, any emotion is an excuse to drink. You're sad, you drink. You're mad, you drink. You had a great day, you drink. Someone is visiting, you drink. That's when you've reached dependence & the next stages after that is when you start drinking even when you don't want to. I think [i]thats[/i] when you're considered a full blown alcoholic.

I don't think I'm an alcoholic but I know I've always had a drinking problem.

Sorry I wasn't trying to match your length but I guess I do that naturally 😅 you should reach out to your friend though. It's nice to catch up. I always say I should then I go another few weeks without talking. Screw it, just text & say hey & that you were reminiscing about her. She'd probably appreciate thag even if it's random 😌 I'm very proud of you both for overcoming that

Scribbles · 36-40, F

@ChiefWalksWith40oz hahaha. Sorry for the length. If I have something to say, it's always a book! Otherwise I'm very quiet. It's the same in person.

You're absolutely right about the stages. I hit every single one of those. Thank goodness, I knew my limits somewhat because I never suffered the "I can't stop and keep being hospitalized for alcohol poisoning" stage. Because after seeing some people go through that...it's absolutely a stage too.

What was your favorite mixed drink using vodka when you were a kid? One day I mixed in watermelon kool aid, and it was so good! It seems funny now, because koolaid is such a kid thing to want to mix in. 🤣

I feel like an old granny to admit that when I was in high school, nobody had cell phones yet. 😂👵. I didn't get a cell phone until I was like 20...and it was 2007 or 2008 or something like that. That was after I had Facebook! I bet I could find her on Facebook if I can remember my password and ask her to FaceTime sometime.

Thanks, man. Much appreciated :) Kicking my bad alcohol dependence is one of the very few things I'm very proud of myself for.

Nowadays I can manage a glass of wine or whiskey, or half an ale or weird flavored craft beer or something a few times a year.

And cheers! You should be proud of yourself for how you've turned out.
I don't talk to you much, but anytime I see you around SW, You've always struck me as someone with a good head on their shoulders (loads of introspection, and a determination to figure things out or work on getting your shit together) and a good heart (cares about people and cares about justice). Hope you're able to fill the rest of your life with lots of happiness.

And good luck with any goals you have regarding alcohol, life, and what-have-you. :)

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@Scribbles I'm glad you never reached full blown alcoholism 🙏 my favorite vodka mix was honestly vodka & orange juice though 😅 I LOVED orange juice growing up so that was my go-to.

I plan on slowing down my drinking this year. This pack I'm almost done with is actually gonna be my last for a while. I'll drink with friends or something but I wanna slow down overall. I'm happy you were able to slow down so much yourself 😌 I hope you can get in touch with your friend. Make the effort fr.

Thanks for the compliments though 🥺 it means a lot. I haven't seen you very much so I'm surprised you can see that much about me & I feel bad I haven't noticed you quite as detailed. I do know you're a good person though just from seeing you around. I'ma add you so I can see you in my feed

Scribbles · 36-40, F

@ChiefWalksWith40oz
It's not an in-depth character study. Lol
Just something I noticed from coming across a few posts.

It's okay, I'm rather boring on SW. I come and go alot too. I don't often post things anymore. So feel free to change your mind later if you like. But that's nice of you. I'll add you too.

Good luck with your goals!