Have been. Not eating disorder though. One break through I found was when I made myself focus on a positive loving person I'd known in the past. That seemed to help nudge me through. Maybe it will help you too. Take care. V.
@FinchFry This is particularly hard. My sympathies for you. I am just emerging from two recent deaths, so, I guess I can empathise. Try to focus on positive things. Not an absolute cure of course, but it can bring some relative sanity or calm back. Good luck.
