Has anyone ever been disrespectful even though it was not intentional?

I realized that I end up getting more impatient with my mom, even though I never

I inadvertently spoke to her in a rude manner today. I snapped at her on Wednesday, and then on Sunday I was feeling agitated and I took it out on her.

I didn't intentionally decide to do those things, but I ended up doing them anyway. And because of this she doesn't want me being around her.

I’m worried I’m slowly turning into this nasty and rude person who’s always disrespectful.

I know my mom loves me, but I feel like I can’t be loved by her because of the evil person I’m becoming.

I wish I was perfect. I wish I was able to do or say everything right, and unable to do the wrong thing. I wish it was much easier to always follow the good path, but I always mess things up!

Maybe this is why I don’t deserve to have any friends. I don’t deserve to be loved by anyone. I deserve to be the most hated person in the world!