I Pregnancy

I am pregnant and I don't want to be. I know it sounds awful to say that and I feel awful for feeling this way but I do. I cry all the time at the thought of me being a mother. I got on birth control specifically because I didn't want to bring up a child in this world. Not even that, I just don't want to be a mother. Everyone is excited but me. The very thought of birthing this child makes me sad. I don't know what to do. I wish I did. I need help.