Why can't I just prove myself?

Yesterday, my dad got me a lock, to lock up my bike, and then he asked why I wanted one so badly. I told him that I wanted to ride it to the library. He was a bit weird about it, and scared about the cars (since some parts of the road had no sidewalk), but he gave him.

Today, I actually rode my bike to the library and back. The thing is though, I came home with a tick (I got it off though). My dad then said, "That's what happens when you go outside. You bring ticks home." Now, he's upset (even though I got the tick off all on my own).

If it's not one thing, he has to make up something else to put me down. He's never supportive on anything I do. Everything that I do he points out something negative.

With my drawings, he asks, "why is the drawing so depressing? That's not healthy. Why not something more happy? Who asked you to draw this?" or "who told you to draw like this?"

I just can't do anything to please him, and prove to him that I can be responsible. It makes me upset and sad. I don't know what to do anymore.

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SW-User

Honey don't sweat it. We must all make biiig mistakes while treading on the path of learning responsibility. Some parents are very controlling and overprotective, and while they may be doing so out of care and love, their execution isn't right. Maybe that's how they were raised and they think it's right for you too, but it's not. We all learn differently. So don't take his criticism.
Make the bones in your skeleton your home. I read that somewhere. But it makes sense. No one can tell you what's right or wrong in your mistakes as much as you as the learner can, from the pain of the mistake. Parents know, they might be harsh, but dig out the crux of their lessons, the ones that are positive, even if it's only one in your entire life . Ditch the negatives in the trash. Draw what you like. Sell it if you wish. Make your mistakes. Be disappointed. And learn. Make new mistakes...but forgive yourself for making old ones again. You can be homeless, cold, struggling. But don't ever tell yourself you're weak. Those bones, they're you. Not anyone's opinion of you. Be kind to yourself.

BlackBloodDemon · 22-25

I understand, but when this constantly happens, you can only take so much. Especially if it's coming from your parent(s). The people who you look up to the most. The people who you want them to feel proud. The people who you go to when you're troubled. The people who are there for you.

SW-User

@BlackBloodDemon: i know. Both my parents are like that. I've spent my teenage years traumatized and it left me confused, under-confident, unsure about myself later. Key is: STOP LISTENING TO THEM TELLING YOU YOURE A LOSER.
YOU GOT SOME SERIOUS TALENT. KEEP EXPLORING. If today you can't ignore one or two people critisizing you, how will you tolerate opinions at your workplace later? Take this as a practice session of "ignoring what people got to say about" you. But get into college. Somehow. Anyhow. Sooner or later. Get. Into. College. Some people have only themselves to support them emotionally. I've been one of them. You gotta do that for yourself too. It's okay to feel in the moment. Just share it anonymously and desensitize yourself. Then get back to your goals :)

BlackBloodDemon · 22-25

@sloth: Thank you, and I will. I want to go to college for Special ED, or maybe one of those people at schools who listen to the kids whenever they don't have anyone else to go to.

I was also thinking art and writing, but I don't really see myself having to get a degree on those things when all I need is lots of practice.

SW-User

@BlackBloodDemon: yeah go for it then! ^-^
I wanna be a writer too by the way, and my parents canNOT find out at any cost!! XD but I'm still trying. And you should too. Art and literature should not die ever.

BlackBloodDemon · 22-25

@sloth: Very nice. What do you usually like to write about? I normally write fantasy with some romance taken place in medieval times.

And I agree. Art and literature should never die. It's too passionate even for death. Death is like, "Keep it away from me!"

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@BlackBloodDemon: I write poetry, and sometimes short stories. But they're all real-life based tragic ones. One I haven't started yet is going to be fantasy though.

BlackBloodDemon · 22-25

@sloth: Interesting. I've written some poems, but I don't really see myself being a poet. Even though it's super fun, I prefer writing stories more.

I base off my poems from the feelings of my characters from my stories.

And fantasy is always fun to write about. I hope your fantasy story goes well.