Naya's mom is suddenly being nice to me & making an effort
Like she bought me food when I came home. She gave me a massage when I said my body was hurting. She even randomly bought me Hot Wheels yesterday for my collection & they were good picks, surprisingly. She's talking nice to me & helping me with things I need. I appreciate it a lot but it's confusing me. I think realization must've struck her a lot more once I told her that I don't want to be with her anymore. I mean we're already broken up, but this whole time she knew I still wanted to be with her & it didn't matter to her. She still slept with someone else, KNOWING how I felt. Now that I've said I don't wanna be with her anymore, she asked me why (seems like a dumb question, considering what she did) & has even admitted that she DID give up on us this whole year & she wishes she didn't.
She's had this new job for a few months now where she's making more money than she was used to. I found a shift that works perfectly opposite of her schedule that way we could both work full time & still take care of Naya. We make the same amount of money now. Together we make over 6k a month. I know we were struggling for a while but I knew we were finally gonna be on track to have a better life than we've ever had together. I thought everything was about to be so much better until all of this happened.
It sucks to think we never got that chance to be happy together without struggling. I know that took a toll on us both. At first I was doing the most on my own, she defintely helped but I took on all the stress. Then those roles reversed when I went to jail. I lost everything all over again & I felt so useless 😔 after I got out of jail I put all my focus on Naya because I was trying to do everything I possibly could & it took me a while to find work again as a newly convicted felon. Life has been hard ever since she first told me she was pregnant. I knew if we lasted, 2026 would've been finally our year. We could've got a bigger apartment or even a house. I'd be able to get my license again & buy another car. We could afford to go out & do more things for Naya. It sucks so much to think all that died before we could even feel what it's like to be at peace as a family. That's all I ever wanted & all I was striving for.
She's had this new job for a few months now where she's making more money than she was used to. I found a shift that works perfectly opposite of her schedule that way we could both work full time & still take care of Naya. We make the same amount of money now. Together we make over 6k a month. I know we were struggling for a while but I knew we were finally gonna be on track to have a better life than we've ever had together. I thought everything was about to be so much better until all of this happened.
It sucks to think we never got that chance to be happy together without struggling. I know that took a toll on us both. At first I was doing the most on my own, she defintely helped but I took on all the stress. Then those roles reversed when I went to jail. I lost everything all over again & I felt so useless 😔 after I got out of jail I put all my focus on Naya because I was trying to do everything I possibly could & it took me a while to find work again as a newly convicted felon. Life has been hard ever since she first told me she was pregnant. I knew if we lasted, 2026 would've been finally our year. We could've got a bigger apartment or even a house. I'd be able to get my license again & buy another car. We could afford to go out & do more things for Naya. It sucks so much to think all that died before we could even feel what it's like to be at peace as a family. That's all I ever wanted & all I was striving for.
