The old me would be so depressed right now

I'd probably be drinking a lot, drowning out my emotions & failing at doing it successfully. I'd be wallowing in sadness because that's what I used to do. It felt pathetic but I couldn't help it. It feels so much better to go through this sober.

Right now I feel like I view things in a more mature way than I have before. I'm a lot more understanding & I know better than to let frustration get the best of me. I've grown a lot thanks to my kid & her mom. As much as I cared about my (now) ex & still do, it feels like a weight has been lifted. I expected to be falling apart inside but instead it feels like my broken pieces are coming back together.

As long as I can still raise my kid, I can be happy. Everything can be okay. It just sucks that everything has to change but I'd rather be separated & find our own happiness, then to both be sad, trying to raise a kid in a situation that just isn't working anymore. It's a conclusion I never saw myself coming to but I'm grateful I can be mature enough to accept it.

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YoMomma ·

It’s nice when we can grow up and be calm and understanding instead of the temperamental kids we were when we were young 😅 sending you best wishes for this new stage in your life.. hope she’s kind to you during the split and after.. some people are better and happier as exes than as a couple (so I've heard from some people anyway) 😳☺

ChiefJustWalks · 26-30

@YoMomma honestly I feel like this relationship taught me a lot about how to remain calm & try to understand the other person. I used to be quick to get defensive & there was a time she told me "it's not like you're 'in the streets' anymore, you don't have to fight anymore" & I started to realize she was right. I never liked to fight but I was so accustomed to believing that I had to. I was so quick to defend myself even when the person wasn't an enemy.

Thank you though & I hope we can co parent civilly. I even hope we can be friends even if it's never like the best friends we used to be before it ever got romantic. I'll always miss those days but those were sadly gone ever since we got together

YoMomma ·

@ChiefJustWalks i think you can go back to being friends.. i have heard of such things .. it doesn't work for everyone but it might for you two ☺ i’m glad she helped you find calm too in yourself and your relationship ☺ i think you’ll both do well it still stings a lil to break up even if one’s heard wasn't completely in it.. you may have both just been trying for the family aspect but it wasn't working and you both were not 100% into each other romantically? It’s best to be 100% and i’m sure you’ll find it sooner or latter.. not that you are looking now 😅 some people get back together latter in life too.. but not always ☺