Losing a parent..
I can't process my Dad's death..i just feel so numb.
He was the only parent i had and nothing could have prepared me for this.
He was the only parent i had and nothing could have prepared me for this.
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Casheyane · 31-35, F
Hey, I hear you. It helps to talk about the things and memories you have of him. The happy ones, the ones that really made him special in your heart.
I won't tell you I hope you heal. I know exactly how long that took from me and the price it came with.
But I would tell you that if you let it, you can try to adapt and embrace with those changes that would come, easier and more willing than I did. I hope it would hurt less then. Because living a life, realizing there's a space and things that someone fills up and used to be and do for you can only be painful, especially when you get to see the real size he used to consume in your life.
But see, the love he gave you will never go away. It is still there with you. And I for one, hope that you would get to see. Strength is a choice we get to take every moment of everyday. I hope his love becomes part of your strength. And the overwhelming sadness..the grief...the heartache...it can be poured into something or some people.
Someone once gave an apt direction of grief. He/she had called it love with no direction. I thought and still thinks it makes perfect sense.
Time matters but it is really your choices and what you do with it, what you allow and don't allow, what you let and not let in that heals. It will be a journey, maybe the hardest one for you yet, but one day, it'd get better. It will. So hang in there.
I won't tell you I hope you heal. I know exactly how long that took from me and the price it came with.
But I would tell you that if you let it, you can try to adapt and embrace with those changes that would come, easier and more willing than I did. I hope it would hurt less then. Because living a life, realizing there's a space and things that someone fills up and used to be and do for you can only be painful, especially when you get to see the real size he used to consume in your life.
But see, the love he gave you will never go away. It is still there with you. And I for one, hope that you would get to see. Strength is a choice we get to take every moment of everyday. I hope his love becomes part of your strength. And the overwhelming sadness..the grief...the heartache...it can be poured into something or some people.
Someone once gave an apt direction of grief. He/she had called it love with no direction. I thought and still thinks it makes perfect sense.
Time matters but it is really your choices and what you do with it, what you allow and don't allow, what you let and not let in that heals. It will be a journey, maybe the hardest one for you yet, but one day, it'd get better. It will. So hang in there.