I had a fight with my mom.

I told her something mean, that I should've said and that I really regret. But I said sorry 50 afterwards.
She doesn't wanna forgive me. She told me not to call her mom anymore and not to calculate her.
She also forbid me from eating in her company or being in the same room as her.
I know what I said was bad, and I feel really guilty now.
And...
I don't really know why I'm writing this. I just feel bad for her, and guilty, and I'm crying, and I want my mom back...