I have no other choice

I had to accept my sons dads help this time since i ran out of food stamps and cash assitance . Its so hard everytime because hes so verbally abusive... not all the time but he tends to want to talk and talk all day .. I wish i had someone who could help me but my other friend i have to wait to thursday. Its painful to see myself have no one to go to and i could go to my mom but she cant do anything she a recovering addict and the last time i asked her for something she went to borrow money from her neighbor.. i felt so bad and i told myself i wouldnt ask her again bc i know she might not have it.. iv asked my sister a few times but she never has ... so the devil is last... unless i sell my a$$ which wont get me shit lmao..man im just gonna pray that god keeps me safe and somehow he wont overstay his welcome .. idk im hoping something comes my way before he actually gets here so i can tell him nevermind .. Its hard being a single parent and then having no support because what do i do? people will say to ask if u need help but no one is going to have it .. tax season is almost here and im so lookkng forward to it .. hopefully i can put some money to the side to avoid being in a predictament like this ..and asking an abuser for help