Well the small 'breakthrough' I had in therapy today was how early and how the pressures to be perfect were put upon me as early as 3 yrs old. I explored how that formed a core personality trait/emotional default state.
I wish as a teenager they wouldn't have continued fostering that unreasonable expectation of perfection when it isn't even attainable. I didn't need to be the model example for my 3 yrs younger brother. It wasn't fair how they blatantly and unashamedly treated us differently even after I pointed it out.